Chapter one

Gracie's pov

"GRACIE!"

Fuckkkkkk…..my mum called my name from the sitting room and yelled out

"It's your first day at college baby, u don't want to be late!"

I groaned and covered my ear using my pillow so I couldn't hear her voice anymore.

She barged into my room and threw a towel in my direction.

I slowly got out of bed so that I could immediately take a shower.

Am anxious because it's my first day in college.

I am not and have never been a nerd.

I am the bully, not the victim of bullying.

My time in high school was the best. I was the girl everyone loved and wanted to be.

Give me some credit because I was the top cheerleader, dated the hottest basketball player, lost my virginity on prom night, and was the leader of my clique of friends.

I recently had my heart broken by my boyfriend — or rather, my ex Jason.

I discovered that he is bisexual and that he cheated on me with Chad, The boy who pooped on himself in sixth grade.

But I am over it now and ready for a new me.

I was creating a mental image of myself in Bernard college when my phone beeped.

It was a text from Gem.

I'm on my way

Shit, I need to hurry. She's on her way and I haven't showered.

Gem has been my best friend since 4th

grade. She is attending Bernard too.

I quickly brushed my teeth, and I replied to her

Be ready in five

I entered the shower still picturing a new "me" in college.

I think I'm gonna rock my years in college.

After my shower, I began to apply makeup because I can't show up in school without looking presentable.

I don't care that my mum has been scolding me because I'm late.

I searched my wardrobe looking for something sexy to wear.

I am searching for a dress that says "Am not a whore but not a virgin either"

"Yeah"

I screamed when I saw my black mini-dress. I wore my black mini-dress that shows my lap halfway.

I paired it with blue flats and a blue Louis Vuitton purse to complete the look.

My purse was a gift from Jason but it doesn't remind me of him.

I cannot do a messy bun. I have never done a messy bun. It's not classy.

I braided my hair in three twists and wished I had Gem's hair.

Gem is a black girl with beautiful afro hair.

I looked in the mirror and groaned unsatisfied with my looks.

Anyway, my looks have never satisfied me.

I cursed under my breath…I enjoy cursing a lot.

It's 8:30am and my class starts at 8:00am. I hoped to arrive before 8:32am.

I thought sarcastically even though Bernard college is not a two-minute drive.

I am not a Christian but I believe in Jesus. But I don't think that makes any sense. I believe in science which is fact and not faith. But I believe hell is real. And that thought scares me.

"Beeeeep" I heard my bestie's horn

I hurried to the dining table, shoved some pancakes into my mouth, downed some orange juice, and dashed out to the door.

"Bye baby" Mum yelled after me.

"Bye mum" I yell back with my mouth full.

"I love you, Have a great day." She yelled as I ran out of the house.

I could hardly hear her so I just replied

"I will" and entered Gem's car.

"Hey gurrlll," I said to Gem as I sat in the front seat and dropped my purse on my lap.

"Sup," She replied as she pulled out of the driveway.

I heard a beep from my phone, I picked it up… and sighed.

It was a message from mum.

She sent a text saying

I should have a nice day.

My mum is a very supportive woman and it has been just the two of us.

I don't know my dad and she does not know him either.

My mum is a single mother by choice, not circumstance.

She is a person that likes sex with no strings attached and according to her, she woke up one day and decided to have a baby.

She bought sperm for $100 on eBay and that's how I was born without a dad.

I heard a cat meow from behind the car.

"Gemm, is Kira here??" I asked

Kira is Gem's cat. She loves her a lot and I don't.

I don't live with pets naturally and I don't love them too. They are too clingy.

"Come on Gracie. Give her a break, she likes you." Gem said with a smile.

"Well the feeling isn't mutual, and why the fuck is she staring at me."

I screamed and Gem laughed hard

"She doesn't bite. okay? She looked away from the road to give me an assuring glance.

"Okay," I said calmly.

I wanted to ask her about the African guy she met during her vacation in Dubai three weeks ago.

I didn't think it was necessary. I could still see the hurt in her eyes.

"Men are morons," I said under my breath.

and waved the thought aside.

"How are your parents? Are they still considering a divorce?" I asked Gem.

I was concerned. That was the reason she went on vacation in the first place.

She wanted space away from home.

"Gracie"

she called my name calmly and turned her face away from the road to give me a blank stare.

After a short silence, she said

"I don't want to talk about them"

Another short silence followed.

Then after a few minutes, we were back to ourselves, catching up on the times we had missed.

The moment we arrived at the college, I jumped out of Gem's car and waved her goodbye.

"Fuck all the dudes baby" she yelled out.

I giggled and yelled

"Shut up." as she drove away.

I turned around to go to class and accidentally bumped into a guy.

"Sorry" he muttered under his breath

"Yeah sure," I replied as I walked around him to go to class.

He turned with me and started walking beside me.

"I'm in psychology, and I like your bag," He said cheerfully.

I ignored him.

I am in psychology too, but I don't want to date any guy either.

He is not tall.

I walked fast so he won't be able to walk with me anymore.

I was sure I had lost him, I turned my head to confine if it was true.

"Yes" I said when I could not find her again.

I turned my head to the front and my head hit a hard surface.

"Ouchhhhh" I screamed.

I used my hand to hit the figure in front of me and raised my head up to look at it

My eyes widedened.